Dies Irae

Nights In White Satin 

When I was a kid, during the time when I was first discovering books like The Hobbit and Lord of the Rings,he Moody Blues was my perpetual soundtrack. Seeing The Hobbit the other day made me want to cover this. So when boredom reared it’s head again, this song came to mind immediately. It ended up being a lot more fun than I expected. Maybe I’ll record a better version of it, on a day that I can actually sing, because my allergies aren’t at war with my sinuses.

I recorded this yesterday as kind of a songwriting experiment. I just sorta made it up as I went along on each track. Obviously, there are tons of flaws, and I don’t think I actually hit a real note the whole time, but I was pleased with it.

run fawn
through the trees
through the meadows
everyone knows
when the hunter comes you run
when the hunter comes you run

run fawn
i’ll be right behind
with my eyes on the sky
to await the lonely sun
today’s the day we run
today’s the day we run

run fawn
through the green
with a wild heart in your chest
though your mind’s an open flame

everyone knows
everyone knows
everyone knows
everyone knows

when the hunter comes you run
everyone knows
when the hunter comes you run
everyone knows
when the hunter comes you run
everyone knows
today’s the day we run

In a last-ditch effort to avoid doing any actual work, I recorded this extremely half-assed cover of Something I can Never Have by Nine Inch Nails. Enjoy.

From the album “Strange Creatures”

well you were right
without the strings
that hold these things all together
we’d both fall
and though we ache
we’ll see this through
there’s something pure in the pain
when it breaks you

libra just let this go
the curtain falls to end the show
libra you cut me so i bled
is that enough for you
libra just let this go

it proved too much
we came undone
we hurt ourselves to relate
to someone
and though we lie
it feels like truth
there’s nothing there anymore
when i fuck you

libra just let this go
the curtain falls to end the show
libra you cut me so i bled
is that enough for you
libra just let this go

come closer darling fuck the pain
if you want me to
i’ll lie to you again

From the album “Strange Creatures”

This feels like a bold declaration
you hold all the keys
the want flows like a river through me
if i choose to move in your direction
the wings that brought me in
will beat beneath me furiously

tell me are you falling
you can’t be because i can’t be
do you hear the ravens calling
how did you do this to me

take this night it’s catch as catch can
i won’t feel alive until i see you again
i just want to make my way to you but maybe i’m scared
i turn the lights off reach out and whisper a prayer
take this night it’s catch as catch can
i won’t fall asleep until i hold you again
i’m alive in this moment though i need you to breathe
it’s time for me to let go of what i used to believe

what brought on this sudden decompression
we both abandoned ship
and i sank into the ocean with you
this attachment borders on obsession
the want gives way to need
the need gives way to desperation

tell me are you falling
you can’t be because i can’t be
do you hear the ravens calling
how did you do this to me

take this night it’s catch as catch can
i won’t feel alive until i see you again
i just want to make my way to you but maybe i’m scared
i turn the lights off reach out and whisper a prayer
take this night it’s catch as catch can
i won’t fall asleep until i hold you again
i’m alive in this moment though i need you to breathe
it’s time for me to let go of what i used to believe

From the album “Strange Creatures”

it’s a cold night for lovers
and the blankets don’t keep you warm
like i did i’d never
been happy like that before
if i’d only known what awaited us
we’d have stayed there under the trees
if i’d known i was losing you
i’d have never let you leave

now i’m a mess
and you’re never coming back
i just think about that night when we
kissed at the red lights
and how you said you loved me more
than you ever thought you could
now you say you lied
but underneath it all
i know you loved me

it’s a cold night for the heartsick
and there’s nowhere to run from that memory
so i drink to try to
forget your name and sleep
but the way you looked and tasted
still burn me to the core
i was ruined by my love for you
and still i’d die for more

now i’m a mess
and you’re never coming back
i just think about that night when we
kissed at the red lights
and how you said you loved me more
than you ever thought you could
now you say you lied
but underneath it all
underneath it all
i know you loved me